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Thank you daffy, petal,figure and andy for responding also, I do feel I have a little more understanding now, and you are so right China it really is a lot more common than anybody realises, andy you have described that hell really well as usual your words come across in a very clear way, thanks for that insight, so glad you are now under control, it must be so scary to be living in a sort of "cocoon" when if you could only talk help should be there, wether it would be is another question, thankfully I have never been down, so for me it is" there but for the grace of god"
I really have had my eyes opened,and also noticed that all of you that have had it are all really nice people who never say a nasty word on here, could that also be a common factor that only nice people suffer this demon on the shoulder?
Thanks again, I expected abuse when I posted this and I got apart from one, amazing answers, hope you all live happy and that "Thing" never ever gets a hold on you all agin, take care, Ray
Sorry about my Grammar, I am useless at full stops etc, should have gone to school more.